Wow haven't really posted much stuff since ever...But I'm glad I'm doing a bit better in school,but on the down side....people still don't really take notice of me & my friends are still ignoring me or just looking down on me *sigh* But I'm sure excited for next year,new classes and new people! And for one thing, I want to get into SFState just to prove my dad wrong. Although today felt like I tried hard to speak out and I did..kinda but it felt good. Can't really decide..Teacher Academy or Finance Academy hmm... After school,I called my friend and talked for a bit,but it seemed like she was having fun on the other line with some guy at Nordstrom... Sigh feel so left out now. Seems like she doesn't even bother to call me just for fun. Or as if i was replaced by 2 guys (but I'm kinda okay with that i guess) The only person that I have at school is probably my giraffe gerng see,but he's usually busy most of the time with other school work & friends. Wished Valentine's Day didn't happen so I wouldn't have to hear that one "phrase". But hopefully things will get better for myself,I'll try harder to be myself around others (well try not to think of what others would think) Wish myself some support XD

Wahh finally thursday ! It was pretty rainy today but it kinda felt good to walk around with an umbrella. What a mean lunch lady,she kicked me and my friend out of the lunch line just because we didn't have .50 cents - - Sadly my sister ditched me for her friends to go to downtown when she asked me to go with her grr... well i looked over to the bright side,I save more money ._. Basically stayed home singing songs to my guinea pigs.I'm still hating on school... I just can't be myself around people my age o_O yeah it's strange.But I like to interact with people outside of that prison house.Hmmm.. maybe I just care about what other people say/think too much :1

Finally I made my decision after all these weeks (not years).Though I feel bad because I just hate hurting people > <. Waiting 10 years from now shouldn't be so bad. I just want to jump into the sky and give a big smile to the heavens above me!

Ha~ today was a refreshing day at school,though I woke up from my pleasant dream because I had to get ready for school - - I don't know but it just felt good being under the sun again.Finally in jap class our pen pal letters came from Clarendon Ele. School.But i was happy to read the letter from little Sarah. During lunch I was so excited for Saturday because my friends have planned a movie day BUT unfortunately im busy on that day because of other business i need to do.AH and I was really looking foward to watching "Atonement" the tragic love story :[ yes sadly im a sappy sucker for these kinda movies.After school I ate some Japanese food that I was really craving for ended up having me in pain now with pulling my muscles and bad cramps - -;; well back to the load of homework & essay ciao XD mmm ...i want some food D:

Well that bites,I have to restart my site because it got messed up - - well ill start about how my day was. Sadly I woke up at 1:30 because I was so caught up in reading this manga called Faster than a Kiss.It was amazing though its not complete but,so far it's really thoughtful.Boy,I wish I had my life like shoujo stories > < Today was sad,hearing the rain come down.Usually I'd think that some was depressed and lonely that made the rain fall. Hmm since I wasn't able to go out today,I decided to write a story,though I'd prefer drawing it out but,I didn't have much effort today. When I think about it,I had a lot of thoughts that were random today. I wish my life was free like the wind,I wouldn't have to worry about anything tying my freedom down.Well I'm off to go eat some yummy delicious food now so I'll stop here for today.